Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Nervous break down for a few days

People who have had cancer will never be the same and will always have a cloud over them and wondering what is going to happen next. I think everyone I have spoken to who have had cancer a long time ago says that it gets better with time but that time has not arrived to me yet...

Last week I noticed that I had a brownish discharge and called my OB for check up. I have not gone to my OB office since last year breast cancer diagnosed so I had a level of anxiety going back to her office. She did the annual check up and after explaining to her what I had noticed she said that it was better to do a biopsy of the uterus as Tamoxifen could produce uterus cancer and one of the signs are bleeding. I almost fall over when she said she was going to do a biopsy there and then, it was like last year was coming back to me and I was getting upset by the minute. The biopsy was quick and almost painless and she did explain that she did not think it was cancer for several reasons but it was better to be checked. When she left the room I literally started crying like a child, I felt I was on square one again waiting for a result of a biopsy that could change my life even more. Alberto got upset with me as I told him not to come with me and when I arrived home and saw how upset I was he wished he had been with me there.

This was Friday afternoon and of course it was waiting time...I told her to send a copy of the pathology report to Dr Chen my Oncologist as I can get hold of her easier and quicker for results. I knew that if they did not call me on Monday or Tuesday the latest I would be OK as here they call you as soon as there are bad news, they are really fast on that!, today I could not wait any more so called them and the nurse called me back confirming that the biopsy come back negative to cancer and the pap smear was normal. OH MY GOD!!, what a relief!, I have been so stress and sleeping so bad for the past few days, now I can relax and wait for the next test I guess.....I just hope that it does get better with time!

3 comments:

  1. Enhorabuena!!!! Ooooootra cosa más que celebrar! jajajaja Hay que verlo así. Y tú dirás: "sí, sí, pero los días de angustia que he pasado, para mí quedan." Y efectivamente, eso no te lo quita nadie, pero con ese resultado, a la porra lo demás! Felicidades!!!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Si chica que mal rato pero como dices a otra cosa mariposa!. Tu que tal estas?, ya te queda poquito para el siguiente paso...
      Besos
      Mila

      Delete
    2. Cancer fully reduce than proper treatment. i hope that get fast relies in this disease.Nervous break down for a few days are normal.

      Lyme disease treatment

      Delete